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Keane - Hamburg Song

I don’t wanna be adored
Don’t wanna be first in line
Or make myself heard
I’d like to bring a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved

No, don’t wanna be the only one you know
I wanna be the place you call home

I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don’t want to know
I give much more
Than I’d ever ask for

Will you see me in the end
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend
Just shine, shine, shine
Shine a little light
Shine a light on my life
And warm me up again

Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple

I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don’t want to know
You take much more
Than I’d ever ask for

Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way

To lay yourself down
And make it so, but you don’t want to know
You take much more
Than I’d ever ask for

Dua Pai Lang

after almost 3 years
you appeared once more
we talked and laughed
and patched back once more
though it seemed happy
but the stings of pain still pierce
through my heart, through my soul

just because,
only in my dreams
you were there once more
drumming myself to sleep
even ive awake
just proves how much i missed
the little things we share

all in all,
its just a dream
forever and more.

Dua Pai Lang

first is the granny - “do yew hafe a gurlfwen nawww?”
as usual, when i visit her the other day
“go get a gurl to take care of yewww, yewww getting skinnierr!!”

then mom - “why dont you brings some girls back?”
Or “are you going out with girls???”
Or “wheres my daughter-in-law?”

then sis - “you going out with your female colleagues again ar?”
while when i’m working late again

its very okay, i mean they are family - which is a-okay.

then, its the aunties.

1:”my ah boy hor, gurlfwen very sweet one leh. Eh, you got new gurlfwen already or not ar?”
2:”are you getting married soon?”
3:”wheres your girlfriend ar?”
which me gives a weak smile
4:”girlfriend leh?”
=_=
5:”girl?”
6:”where?”
Me:”…..”

marinally, fine. still not too far, still family. breath in/breath out/smile.

then its the colleagues

boss, “go home, to your girl.”
“no girl lar.”
“stop working late, and you get one.”
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colleague from other dept, on another worklate day
“you waiting for your girlfriend to knockoff?”
“Err, no sir. No girl.”
“You sure?”
“Yeaaap.”
“bullshit.”
“err..”
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female colleague from another dept,
“C! why you always have late lunch ar?” (always have lunch after 3pm+, busy.)
another female,
“he go romantic loh, thats why always dun go lunch with us one.”
“sorry lar, too busy. i always tabao back one, anyway.”
“your gf damn understanding hor? eat late, work late, dun quarrel one meh?”
“err, thats why no gf.”
“yah right loh”
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tokyo colleague which visited office the other day,
“say, you hate women, is it?”
when i say im not going out with anyone
“no, i like women as much as you do.”
“you gonna be bullshitting me. at your age, i was living it high, dude.”
“err okay.”
“see that girl, she’s cute and you’re “SINGLE” - go get her number.”
which i didnt, and was downed a pint of beer.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG BEING SINGLE AT MY AGE, DAMN IT!!??

tamade

Dua Pai Lang

ps: my interns think im 28-mid30s. oh dear…………..

my pen is lost (see inset picture).

lost.gone.poof.

i guess i lost it in transport or
trying to dig my lighter outta my pants
and it fell out

my pen is lost

it may be just another tool for adding lewd strokes to your 8days

but my pen is more than that
its my tool to release
literature discharge
and the rare doodles
a mighty tool to bring forth
the innermost outta me

my pen is heavy
but it glides in paper smooth
every stroke and punctuation intensified
when it touches the virgin white of paper

my pen is held in my hand
thoughts flow like orgasm
fast thorough and mindblowing

i need a new one
this pen is my fav
would you get me one?

**end**

Dua Pai Lang

i miss the days
when we talk
like tomorrow is a myth

in the rain
in the dark
looking back
at my wet footsteps

i wonder
where we are now
maybe its the slip
when the heart says
and the body walks away

Dua Pai Lang

this year is a bad year for us Water Boar (Chinese FengShui)
not only our luck in the love department blossoms
thereby inviting unnecessary distractions and relationships

our patience runs thin
very,very thin

happygolucky as we are
patience is one of our foremost virtues
but not for this year

i can really sense a distinct change in my tempermentals
im really impatient this year
and my temper gets out easily

if you have noticed
im sort of a person that reasons in a calm noninvasive manner
but these days
im just pissed off with everything everyone
with my job my interns my friends my life and even her that i have an attraction to

though it kindda feels good to ditch that nice guy and be an asshat
shooting my mouth off and have no regrets

i really must curb my anger and temper
else i would piss someone off more
and regret later

to my friends that unfortunately been terrorized by my change
or been at the wrong end of my wrath
pls do bear with it i mean no harm
these days i just need to let it out
or abuse someone/thing
and i probably forget about it the next hour or day

im taking a big wide step away
from my feelings
to cut the boundaries
of love and feelings
lest my anger takes away
everything
everything of the little left
hope you understand

Dua Pai Lang

funny thing is
im utterly convinced today is wednesday
after the little incident yesterday
but its thursday
which is nearer to the weekend
which im trying to make myself believe

strange freaky wednesday ran away

Dua Pai Lang

we sometimesfeel all black
and empty
of all the care in the world

Dua Pai Lang

***edited with another song! hurhurhur!!!!!!***
no way im gonna just cook/wash/entertain them!

RN and KM!!

I command you both!

Practise this next song.
I wanna hear in our next K session!

[youtube=”http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HiqFeu_IFdQ”]

no buts, no excuses.
just sing.

Lyrics:

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Thank you.

Dua Pai Lang
p.s: nadnut, you still wanna eat my food???

cooking is alot like love
i dont cook alot
nor for anyone either

maybe
i just feel a surge of want
or a need of putting off thoughts
perhaps
just feeling lackof

i went over to RN’s
cooked steak and potatoes
for her and her monkeyboy

its therapeutic
using whats available
to marinate the stirloins
mix the sauce
see the sauce to a boil
boil the potatoes
and serve them to hungry people

sounds like alot like love?
you will see the analogy.

end of story

Dua Pai Lang